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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 16:44

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Ive learnt so much.

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I think the readers, may guess!

She wouldn,t have been !

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

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(And it was in our own minds.)

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

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I will be 64.

So, i spoilt her more .

I did it because my mum asked me too!

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So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

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But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Especially a lifetime of it.

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She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

But ive been too sick for many years..

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

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With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I was very sick at this time too.

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Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

We were not on the streets..

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When she asked me how she looked .

He resisted the act ,that day.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

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Would this be the day?

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

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Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

On the 31st of Jan this month .

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I waited trembling.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

He knew the spot.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

So whats the point in blame.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Put me off passion for life!!

We all went to grammer schools

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

As i do to all so called friends.?

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Im still living with it.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I said to her

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

One cannot live in the past .

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

All the time i was locked up.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I was 9 years of age.

She was in good health!

Comes on , in middle age.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

What did i know ?

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

She found it foreign!.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I could never make a relationship work though!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

She loved him until the end.

I have no regrets .

I was seconnd youngest,

I was scared of men, in general

This is soul school!.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I never cut or harmed myself..

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

But, we were locked up after school.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I don,t even have a pension.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Who then, do I blame.?

And i lived it daily.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I write beautiful poetry .

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

She married twice! .

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

It was going to be , some day.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

My family never makes their pension either.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

My life is so biszare .

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

But it wasn’t much.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Why did i forgive my father ?

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I couldn’t, believe it.

Was to survive, this bastard.